Ugh. I really need to do this more often. It would really help me straighten my thoughts out. Laying in bed worrying about the next couple months and how everyone is graduating, except me. Very frustrating, but also my own fault. If I wouldn't have slacked off so much- this wouldn't be happening. If I wouldn't have ditched my education major - this wouldn't be happening. If I wouldn't have attempted a business minor- this wouldn't be happening. If. If. If. I worry now but really my life wouldn't be what it is now if it wasn't for all those "ifs". I thank God everyday even through the worry, anxiety, and pain for them all. There is definitely things that could be worse.
Which brings me to my next thought...
One of my coworkers and friends has of late had a daily struggle with the meaning and importance of life. He isn't finding it worth living and it's extremely sad, frustrating, and heart breaking to watch. Trying to talk to him does nothing. He only sees the temptation of a permanent relief. Just praying he doesn't seek it.
Feels good to fill the void of communication with writing again.
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